Thursday, August 28, 2008


I've just been plane lazy about writing this blog since I got back to Dublin last week. So to punish myself, I'm just going to pretend its only Day 39.
The temptation to give up on my quest has been at an all time high since I've been back in the land of the gargle. Just an hour ago I was almost about to delete this blog and pretend it never happened.
I called my girlfriend and told her I was going to have a drink.
To my surprise she told me not to.
It's strange how she has changed her tone. At the beginning she wanted me to drink. Now, she thinks I'm best to stay off it.
I think she's worried that I'll be down on myself if I quit my mission now.
There's just too many social situations to get through at the moment in my life. Too many people to meet and be chatty with.
I've noticed about 4 new bars on Dame Street, since I've been gone a month to Hamburg. 4!!!
There is a new Korean restaurant opened up on the door step of my old Dublin apartment. The owner is struggling for business it seems. So when myself and a few friends went in, he just kept pouring them free wine, while trying to ply them with sushi.
4 new bars and a hoard of free drink. Welcome home.
Its Thursday night, and the town is positively buzzing with people in the bars.
I'm losing faith. Can I go on?


Hope said...

You can.

An Irish Friend of Bill said...

generally. only alcoholics have difficulty imagining a life without alcohol.

social drinkers can take it or leave it.
if this peiod of abstinence has made you more uncomfortably aware of how much you crave alcohol, then perhaps you should attend an OPEN aa meeting.

Tradition 3. The only requirement for A.A. membership is a desire to stop drinking.

meaning you do NOT need to be an 'alcoholic' to be a FULLY PAID UP member of aa.

hence: "Its better to be in AA pretending to be an alcoholic, than to be 'out there', pretending you're not"

An Irish Friend of Bill said...

the mind is like a parachute.
it only works when it is OPEN

are you able to be open minded about whether or not AA may or may not have anything of value to teach you?

as they say-
Bring your body and your mind will follow.

Keep coming back